|Like a Deer in the Headlights!|

cracked light whiteCracks & Collision

Read pt.1 here: |Crack Attack! A Tragedy for the Front Bumper pt.1|

You thought I was done fixing my car?! Well of course not!

Just to catch you all up, here’s a quick timeline of the fixtures made to my Suzuki Swift:
(links attached to relating posts)

>I smashed the front part of my car attempting a U-turn on a ’roundabout’
> The tire burst on the motorway
> I had the tired change with H
> We’d discussed plans on changing the front bumper
> Oh great, the headlight bracket broke off too… and now we’re here!

It had taken a few weeks for the front bumper replacement to be delivered, and I had eagerly waited for the day to come. As you can see, my car has seen better days:

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Roll forward a few more weeks… and alas! It’s arrived! Upon receiving an alert from H, I’d bolted out of the door with eager strides to have the car fixed.

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Upon removal, I was surprised to find another unexpected disaster! Ah, the previous few collisions had made more of an impact that intended, and it had completed destroyed the rear casing of the left headlight. The bad news from my mechanic left me rolling with laughter. Of course it did! Just my luck, right?!  Unfortunately for me, although H would be able to re-attach the headlight bracket, it wouldn’t be much help in relation to fixing an already broken headlight.


(no, you are not ok)

Despite this, H did a fantastic job changing my front bumper:

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It’s been a few weeks since I’d had alterations done to the car (both headlights and front bumper). While my bank account has seen happier days, I’m glad to tell you all that the front of my car is looking spectacular! Although I can’t predict the future, I don’t intend on smashing the car into anything… at least not anytime soon!

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H has ‘kindly’ given me the remnants of the car parts for me to frame. 


Just remember, kids. Be safe behind the wheel…!





|Crack Attack! A Tragedy for the Front Bumper pt.1|

crackattackWhat’s crack-a-lackin’?

Pt.2 posting on Friday!

A little while back, I had experienced my first car incident on the motorway (post can be read here).

I have since built a rapport with the mechanic, H, whom has countlessly helped me with both hardware and surface issues relating to my car. As explained in my previous post, I had surface damage on my front bumper due to stupidity, stubbornness and poor spatial-awareness. In short, I’d rammed the Suzuki Swift into a bollard (and it must have been a hard hit judging by the crack -eek!) while taking a U-turn on a ’roundabout’.
Note: the roundabout was in fact a painted white circle on the ground, illustrating how tight the road was and justifying my stupidity…

car crack

It had taken a few months before I’d mustered up the will to invest £300+ on damages and repair. While I’d become accustomed to the growing crack, visualisations of the front bumper detaching from the the car while driving to work was a budding fear of mine.

After H’s initial inspection of the car, we’d come to expected conclusion that a new front bumper was needed! Although we had both anticipated the change of a bumper, upon opening the bonnet,  we’d found that the headlight attachment had snapped off, and it had almost screamed at us asking for it to be repaired and reconnected!
Oh great, another lump sum of money chucked into car amendments. -tch!

headlight snap

My satisfaction with his services had exceeded my expectations! As an alternative to buying a headlight replacement, H suggested that he could solder and glue the plastic headlight attachment together in order to secure the headlight back in place. Although I would still need to invest in a new front bumper, I was saving far more on repairs than I had estimated.

Now, I know some readers may be quite skeptical about mechanics  who are notoriously known for swindling amateur drivers (like myself) with outrageous handling fees and cost for parts. In all fairness, I had doubts myself after sorting through a couple of car dealers and mechanics prior to H. Each mechanic would spit out a random number ranging from £500-£1.2k with a list of ‘works to be done’ to justify the number. For that reason, I was thrown back by H’s consultation; how is this mechanic going to the utmost extreme to find alternatives to helping me to save a few hundred bucks!?

So here’s a little advice to you all: Do your research.
Don’t jump at the first price you hear from a ‘specialist’, because there’s a likelihood that they are picking numbers from a cloud above their head. It may take some time to sift through a series of companies and mechanics, but it is essential that you find one that you can trust, and at a reasonable price!


|WORD SPLURGE: The Need to be RIGHT!|


Note: word splurge – instant posts drafted & scrambled together with incoherent words

Ohhhh, I am itching to word splurge this morning! The end of the weekday awaits, and the weekend is just around the corner! As I’m typing, I am chomping on my cereal with a strong urge to voice my opinion on the need to be right. 

A couple months ago, I’d fallen into a heated discussion with an old friend. He had refused to accept and end our debate on ‘agree to disagree’ terms; his reply to my preposition was due to his “want to be right!”

There has been several instances where people (myself included) have become irretrievably blind to the situation at hand because of the need to be right. Imagine yourself in the heat of a situation – whether it be an argument with your partner or family member, or a discussion-leading-on-debate with friends and colleagues. Within that moment, you somehow become closed off from the initial topic of discussion. In turn,  you mentally shield yourself with ‘I NEED TO WIN! I NEED TO BE RIGHT!’ to protect your fragile ego.

During this moment, you become blind to the initial topic of discussion in order to ‘win’, or in your defence, to prove your point.

But why?

Why is it that we crave to be correct? Is it because it inflates our ego and affirms our sense of self-worth, or is it a defence mechanism we’ve developed to protect our own values from opposing and intrusive topics?

It’s frustrating, from both ends of the spectrum as we can become remarkably stubborn  and closed minded in order to prove our point. Whether it be a defence mechanism, or a means of feeding our ego; if either individual refuse to accept the opposing opinion, the conversation inevitably becomes pointless.

So here’s a question I’d like to propose:
If you’re have a pointless conversation, why should you continue to prove your point?

Stop wasting your time and agree to disagree!
Stop trying to be your version of ‘right’!

| ‘Feed Me!’ Food |

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Food Frenzy!

Incase you have not yet been introduced to my Venus Fly Trap, you can read catch up on my previous posts here:
|Trap Nation Territory|
|Until Death Do Us Part|

I’ve become intrigued by the sheer power of the mouths that spread across the plant pot.

Much to my delight, it doesn’t take much effort to look after the plant seeing as it takes care of itself when it comes to finding food.

The strikingly fierce jaws lay dormant until a poor unfortunate soul mindlessly slithers its way into the opening and falls into its demise as the trap slowly encloses itself to prepare for its feast.

It’s absolutely fascinating, no?!

I have since documented the three main types of insect that it enjoys eating:





Baby moths

Moth sketch

In all honesty, I’m most intrigued by its tantalising effects on houseflies… how is something so monstrous, disgusting and brutally annoying to humans easily absorbed by a mere plant?! Gone are the days where unattractive sticky tape hang from the ceiling in hopes to catch annoying buzzing of flies!

I have in fact documented photos of the its victims within their mouths, however I don’t think it’s wise to post gruesome photos online… nonetheless, let me know if you want to see the photos!


EGOEgo: A person’s sense of self-esteem or self-importance

Note: word splurge – instant posts drafted & scrambled together with incoherent words

While I’ve understood the concept of varying ego sizes from person to person, I’ve only recently been made aware that ego comes in various forms depending on the situation that you place yourself in.

For instance, while you may not have a huge ego when it comes to everyday situations in your present life, there may be a particular aspect that you may take pride in (maybe even too much pride in?!)

Let’s say for example, a dentist: She’s extremely humble when it comes to her well-paid job. Despite her clients gifting her flowers and words of gratitude almost everyday, her ego remains modest and accepts the compliments from others. However, when it comes to her weekly badminton classes, her ego may become inflated to the point where she becomes slightly too egotistical and smug in relation to her talents.

While I don’t consider myself to have an inflated ego, I have come to realise that in some aspects of my life, I become extremely defensive when something or someone challenges certain beliefs of mine.

Ego comes in varying forms, and it’s come to light that I hate it when my status becomes challenged or compromised in the eye of another. In relation to it all, when a close friend of mine darted the ‘you have a huge ego yourself!‘ comment, I’d abruptly defended myself by shouting and denying! ‘What?! No! How?!

It has been a few weeks since the initial debate, and I hate to admit it, but it’s true. I do have a huge ego under certain circumstances. When this is combined with my already acknowledged stubborn mindset, I am quick to defend myself in hopes to protect the fragility of that good ol’Ego of mine!

A horrible trait, yes. I know. However, this doesn’t mean it can’t be changed in the near future!

So have a think about it; do you have an inflated ego under certain circumstances in your life? Maybe you take pride in your work, or a hobby of yours?
Food for thought. Think about it.

|’It is what it is’|

Look forwardSuch is life

During my final year at University of Brighton, I’d become acquainted with a sweet girl who lived by the saying ‘Such is life’. Despite having this ingrained into my mind throughout the course of my final year, I have never truly grasped onto the concept of it.

In the past year (post-graduation), I’ve come to realise that despite trying your hardest to accomplish, achieve and attain… sometimes, it’s just not possible.

There are plenty of things in life that don’t go to plan. Say for instance, your usual drive to work or school ended up taking twice or even three times its usual duration because of a car accident or maintenance work. Or maybe you booked an appointment to see your dentist but it had been cancelled last minute because the doctor was ill. Many every day occurrences are out of our grasp.

Unless you live in a glass bottle,
it’s just not possible to control every single aspect of your life.

Although I continue to face an ongoing battle with struggling to achieve certain goals or tasks due to uncontrollable variables, I have since come to terms with the idea that things don’t always go to plan… and that’s okay!

It’s important to remember that despite being unable to control outside factors, what we (ourselves) can control is our state of mind and how we react to such problems in our life. In other words, it is what it is. ‘Such is life‘. Rather than become wholly consumed by things ‘going wrong’ in your life, you can either complain and focus on the negative, or, you can choose to accept it for what it is, take a deep breath and move on.

In other words, new problems are always going to pop up in life. If you’re living a life with no problems, you’re either living in a glass bottle, or you’re not progressing enough in life to face any new problems at hand. So next time you become frustrated with something that doesn’t align with how you want it to be, accept that it has happened and keep on going!

Don’t be afraid to welcome new problems in your life; it’s what makes living interesting!
 Just keep going, you’re doing great!

|ROAD TO: Stonehenge|

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Huewinn & The ‘Henge

I’ve recently read an article on planned alterations made to the A303/M3 route due to the excessive build up of traffic from the English heritage site: The Stonehenge.
(Article can be read here)

Coincidentally enough, I’d only just returned from my trip through the same road! Despite my enthusiasm, I don’t consider the Stonehenge itself to be anything of amazing value. However, the commute from Westbury to London via the A303/M3 route past the pile of glorified rocks is beautiful in its own way.

I have in fact been close up and personal with the stones twice in my lifetime (so far) – once as a child, and the second as an ‘adult’. I have segments of memories from my first visit to the Stonehenge as an 8-year old child. In my mind, my family day trip seemed to drag on for hours! I was a small girl with an audio headset and stunted legs trotting around the site impatiently waiting for my father to take the family home already! All in all, it didn’t leave much of an impression and the audiotape failed to grasp the attention of an 8-year old child.

This year, I’d returned to the Stonehenge to see if my opinion of the site had changed. It did, but for the worse. Man, I was disappointed! While I understand that your perspective as a child and as an adult are going to be different, I didn’t expect it to be so drastic! I was wholly underwhelmed by the meager size of it all, and what was estimated to have been a 2-hour trip around the site, turned into a stretched-out 30 minute circle around it. Once again, there wasn’t much of an impression left on me – and for the price that you’re paying?! C’mon!

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Pencil study

Although I found Stonehenge to be anything but spectacular close up, it truly is a completely different sight when viewed from a 7mp/h speed on the carriageway. The sun hits the stones and it glistens like shards of crystals placed on a pedestal in an empty field. Despite the build up of traffic, it is definitely not something you’d like to miss. Albeit… spectacular! 

So the next time you, or anyone you know drives past the A303 transport build up, dedicate the next few minutes towards the beauty of the site from afar. Although you’ll be caught up in the tortoise-paced traffic, the free showing of the English heritage site is not something to be missed. Think about it, before you know it, you’ll be zooming off at 50+mp/h to get back on track to the destination you’re supposed to be going to!

(Plus, you may not get a chance to in the future if the planned works go ahead!)

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Water colour overlay

So buckle up, and enjoy the experience while you can.