On keeping my creativity
Read my previous post here: |A Brief History of Blog Writing|
My previous post delved into a brief history of this site, and my near-future intentions with it. Following this, I’m going to go into detail about how I intend on steering huewinnchan.com back into design.
I don’t want to delve too much into the widespread ‘history’ of the blog since it’s all documented in my previous post. To summarise (in relation to design), this site began as a design blog to document and exhibit my previous design projects. In other words, it was to become an online museum of works. At the time, I wasn’t confident in uploading projects that I wasn’t proud of, likewise, I wasn’t strong enough to stand up to my fears of ‘not being good enough’ and pre-perceived negative judgement from others. The design portion of the blog quickly removed itself, and the site became inactive from January through to June.
It’s been half a year since I’ve rectified this site, and it’s taken a change of course in the most recent months. While my blog continues to harness some aspects of design input, it focuses primarily on my self-reflection and personal development towards different aspects within my life. With regards to the design aspects of this blog… well, it has in a way diminished. Don’t get me wrong! It’s not to say that I have no interest in progressing with design. I continue to have strong intentions to steer my personal career towards the creative route. However, this time I’ll be doing it on my own basis.
For those who don’t know, despite graduating in Interior Architecture I have little to no interest in falling into said career path. It’s a downfall on my behalf, considering that I was apparently determined to follow the architecture route during my teenage years. However, I’d forced myself to believe that although my chosen degree didn’t completely fall into jobs of interest, it had continued to cite similarities in job specifications when applying. Yes, my degree touched on the main discipline of the Adobe Package, but the feedback received from companies was that my degree didn’t fall into what they were interested in. In that sense, that was most likely a major contributing factor as to why I was unable to land a role in the design world – because I was applying to design jobs not specific enough to my graduated discipline.
So what is it that I want to do?
At this current moment in time, I continue to search for my answer. I don’t know! I don’t! I know that it will be something creative, likewise, I know that it will be something hands on that is personal to me. I steer towards work that pays for who I am. Likewise, (as hubris as I sound) I’m powered by emotions that fuel my creativity.
Who knows what design direction I will head towards… who knows!?
All I know is that generalised interior design and architecture is not what I have in mind.
All I know is that in a world revolved around social media; design work is best broadcast online.
All I know is that I refuse to work under a company that doesn’t share the same values as I do, likewise, it’s far simpler to work for myself to have these needs met.
I don’t need a degree or a design job to justify how creative I am. Like I said before, qualifications are only justifications to society to show that you are ‘eligible’ do or say something. You don’t need any qualifications to justify your own opinions and perceptions!
It’s been a tough year to build up my confidence again, and I’m proud to declare that I can draw! I’m heading towards a risky pathway with utmost optimism and enthusiasm. To start 2018 with a bang, I’ll be making a glorious amount of transformations revolving around this site and it all starts with creating a domain name specific to me.
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